gingerhead crush

if you didn't already know, i'm slightly obsessed with Harry Potter, and even more obsessed with Rupert Grint. we are pretty much MFEO. (mfeo=made for each other.) i think he is just adorable. now please enjoy this video and wonder and how Rupert can be so creepy and yet still so attractive. (also, the lyrics are wonderful and i love them.)

ok now onto more serious matters. today i was voting- for the People's Choice Awards. i know, i know. who actually does that? well i figure if i can vote, then i'm going to. i can't even talk about it. how do you choose? i stressed more over these votes than i did over my vote for president. . . do i vote for Andrew Garfield as best superhero or Christian Bale??? voting made me want to re-watch all the amazing movies that came out this year. i also realized that  i don't really go see a lot of comedy's. i usually just go see action movies. or maybe that was just this year. who knows. so, go vote! BE HEARD!

all joking aside, let's talk about humor. i'm thankful for people and situations that make me laugh! sometimes a small touch of laughter is really what gets me through the day. it is like a shot of chocolate sauce on top of plain vanilla ice cream. so thanks people who make me laugh.

speaking of ice cream, i have one week left of my No Junk Food Challenge! guys, it's getting soooo hard! it seems like everyone is blogging, posting and tweeting about delicious foods that i can't eat! your over there with your ice cream, chocolate, and cookies, and i'm over here like: "i've got this applesauce. . . " on the bright side, i have not been able to eat my emotions!

feeling like this right now. if i could just live in the castle or with Peter Pan (i'm sure he would be cool with it) and escape the stresses of now, that would be lovely.

why i am REALLY jealous of married people

it's a well known fact that married people go to bed early. and by "early" i mean like 10 or 10:30. correct me if i'm wrong but my experience with married people has led me to believe that they go to bed pretty early (unless they have to work late or something like that).
when you're single you can't go to bed early. well you can. but only if you want to be a social pariah. if you want to go on dates, meet new people, and have a semblance of a social life, then you have to stay up late! even on school nights when you should be getting up by seven the next morning.
some people may be jealous that married people have the companionship, romance, etc. of marriage and a committed relationship. me? i'm really just jealous that after their studying is done, they can just watch an episode of their favorite tv show and fall blissfully asleep by like 11.  i'm out here struggling to flirt it up and make a good impression so that maybe i'll get asked out, and then maybe he will ask me out again, and then maybe he will like me too, and then maybe we will start dating, and then maybe we will keep dating, and then maybe we will fall in love, and then get married.
it's exhausting.
really, all i wanna do is sleep.
so i'm praying i find my husband. before i keel over from lack of sleep. or just stop socializing and seal my destiny. or get desperate and buy this:

guys i really want one. not because i am desperate, but because i think it is the funniest thing i've seen in weeks. when i first saw this i almost stopped breathing because i was laughing so hard. i mean, i'm trying hard not to laugh now- because i'm on the first floor of the HBLL and people would wonder. . . but this is definitely what i'm asking santa for this Christmas! ha ha!

my induction into the blogging world (ie. my first blogger meet up)

yesterday on my lunch break i got a text from Sierra which said "there's a blogger meet up tonight!" and i knew that i would finally become a part of this blogging world which actually really exists. mind you, i was super self conscious because i would be coming straight from an eight and a half hour work shift and my hair looked like shiz, but i didn't want to pass up the opportunity!

ok guys, i'm just going to give it to you straight. I MET JEF FROM THE BACHELORETTE. not even joking. people who don't believe me, there are pictures documented by Elisabeth here. and hopefully Alycia will send me the pictures of Sierra and I with him too. you probably know that i do not watch the Bachelorette. i try, i really do. this season especially, since everyone was gushing over Emily and how i needed to watch it. yeah i got like 30 minutes into week 1 and stopped. however, i did "meet" Jef and instantly thought he was the cutest one. so i remembered him. when Sierra and I realized he was there i about died. i was already nervous enough, being with all these stinkin cute bloggers, but that took me over the edge. i just smiled and laughed and looked like a total fool. but oh well. i don't think it would work out with us anyways.

other highlights of the meet up included meeting some of my favorite Provo bloggers! i was super excited to meet them in real life. now maybe we can be real life friends instead of just blogger friends? i also got a free meal card to Cafe Rio. this made me almost as excited as meeting Jef. guys, i take my food seriously.

i'm not crying the sun was just bright

so yeah that's the story of how i became a "real" blogger, i met cool gals, and got a picture taken with Jef. and now i feel like i need to be the most awesome blogger ever, to keep up with these other awesome blogs.

pictures stolen from sierra and elisabeth :)

irrational fears no. 1

you know those things you totally are afraid of, but really for no good reason? because they are completely unfounded. i'm not talking about being afraid of spiders or being afraid of airplanes. i'm talking about those fears that are so crazy that you never, ever talk about them. because people will probably laugh.

it's time i shared one of mine. please don't laugh. this fear has struck my heart quite a few times since starting this college experience. (and by "college experience" of course i mean datinglookingforahusbandatBYUbeforeallthehomewardladiesthinki'mdestinedtobeanoldmaid experience.) did you catch that?

sometimes (deep breath) i am super scared that i am going to marry someone who is not attractive.

ok ok, i know, how shallow can i a girl get?! like i'm laughing that i just wrote that sentence. it's ridiculous. but it's still a fear. especially after i get rejected, or when i feel like i just can't find a guy that i would want to date, this fear starts to creep into my head.

i worry that since all the guys who are asking me out are not that attractive to me, or that the guys i think are attractive are either tools or unavailable, that there is no hope and i will inevitably end up with an unattractive man.

it used to consume my mind. and then i had a light bulb. i realized "beka, you idiot, of course you aren't going to marry someone you aren't attracted to. that would be just dumb. you are going to think he is the hottest thing since jalapeno peppers. so don't you worry!"


so every time i get worried that i'm going to marry an ugly man, i just remind myself that that is quite impossible and will never happen.

but all the same, i think i'm going to go to England and find Rupert, fall madly in love, and get married. just to be on the safe side.

do you have any irrational fears? what are they? do share.

ps. please do not be offended because i said some guys were unattractive/ugly. i meant that they are not attractive to me. please remember that we all have different tastes and i'm pretty sure many guys do not find me that pretty either. that's just life. if you can't deal with it, then go grow up. and then come back and read my blog.

commence true fan girl screaming

i know i just barely posted about the awesomeness that was Hunger Games. but then i was looking at Harry Potter and just reminded about how much i truly love Harry Potter!  first two items of business. did you know that the Harry Potter Wizard's Collection will be released on September 7,  2012. it's $350 on Amazon. whew! but i want it SO badly! especially since it contains gems like this.

isn't he adorable? oh my. secondly, did you hear that JK Rowling lost her billionaire status? i dare say she won't be homeless or anything so don't worry. (she lost the status because she had donated so much money to charity. you go girl!) more excitingly, it was just announced (officially) that Universal Studios Hollywood will be creating a Harry Potter land similar to that in Orlando. It is scheduled to open in 2015. i will be there! BONUS: Pottermore (a Harry Potter companion website) will open to the public in April!
now please excuse me as i post massive amount of fan girl photos.

k thanks for humoring me. happy saturday night!

THE hunger games post

just some of my thoughts about the movie.
- it's really good! definitely better than Twilight (i guess i've heard people comparing it to Twilight so i just have to point out that it is way better)! i personally didn't think that it was too violent or anything. there is the debate about certain "dark themes" and the affect they will have on children. but honestly, the book had the exact same themes so if you read the books you aren't going to be surprised. these are classified as "young adult fiction" (i think) and are not children's books. so if you want themes appropriate for children, go watch... Happy Feet. or something. there are troubling themes, but they make you think. and that is the point of a good book- thought and action.

- the casting was excellent. Effie was exactly how i pictured her. Haymitch was just as unruly and sarcastic as i thought (although maybe a little younger than i imagined). of course i loved Katniss and Gale. i wish we could have seen more of their friendship.
- i didn't particularly like Prim.

- The Reaping was so emotional! i was worried they would make is cheesy and dumb. but no. they did not disappoint.  goose bumps.
- Peeta. i have had my internal battle between Peeta and Gale ever since i read the books. i am all about the girl marrying the best friend (Gale), but Peeta is really too perfect. and honestly, he is better for Katniss than Gale is. and, he has loved her forever! i love his adorable smile and how everything he does, he does for Katniss. although Ron/Rupert will always be my #1 home boy, Peeta is definitely on the "fake boyfriend" list.
[commence massive amount of fangirl pictures of Peeta.]

right before the most adorable smile

how debonair!

- oh, and i want Katniss's hair.

tonight

i'm just a little bit excited. . . 

my main man

guys, i know some of you are offended that i deleted my j biebs tribute post. you see, after i wrote it i realized that i was my main man's fictional character birthday. yes, it is, in fact, Ron Weasley's birthday today.
i have one motto in life

and why not? this kid is amazing. i know that he isn't the best looking. he pretty much looks like an awkward mess 95% of the time. but that other 5% makes up for it all. also, he is hilarious! sure, the kid is kinda dumb, but that's ok. i'll roll with it. because he's got a heart of gold. have you seen the way he looks at Hermione?

OH. MY. GOSH. i die. their love story is real. and yet so romantic. and heart wrenching. the kid snogs with Lavender. i mean, Lavender???? and yet, he always comes back to Hermione.
the thing i just love about Ron is that he doesn't assume to be better than he is. he is the best friend of the most famous person in all of the wizarding world, yet he is content with being just Ron. most of the time. sometime's he gets jealous, but he is unfailingly loyal. often he comes out of Harry's battles just as battered and bruised as Harry. He is ready to put his life on the line to save his family, the girl he loves, and the truth.
sure, he started off a little quirky and dorky.

but he grows up. and i love every sarcastic, awkward, rebellious word he says.

Happy Birthday Ron. No offense justin, but this man is a little lot more important than you. i mean, we grew up together.

not the best picture but i love the words

p.s. did i mention i'm a sucker for gingers?

i'd run a mile for ya

it's time i made a confession. i have a crush. it's major. and who is it on?

Miles Batty.

if you go to byu then i think it's a sin if you do not know who he is.
i cut his picture out of newspapers, get butterflies if i see him walk by me in the RB or SFH, follow all his races. and kids, this is a two fold crush. i have a crush on his athleticism. he is an amazing runner! in fact, this last weekend, he broke the NCAA mile record at the 105th Milrose games. you can watch him breaking the record and it's pretty fantastic.

that is some stellar running! he is running with some top professionals here and breaks the record, making the new record 3:54.56 (or something close to that). the second fold to this crush is that this boy is insanely cute.

i'm kind of a freaky stalker, i know, but hey he might be famous someday...

peter pan

i do realize that i have expressed my love for a certain boy in green (aka peter pan) already on this blog. did i tell you that last time i was in disneyland, peter pan totally waved at me? yup, we're getting married. in three weeks.
i need your advice. there is a peter pan dance here at the Y this weekend and i don't know which girl to be. here are my choices:



wendy- wendy is sensible and caring. but let's be honest, she's a bit of a stick in the mud for a little while. however, the Lost Boys come to love her because she is like a mother to them. she is also courageous and fights for what she loves. her choice of clothing- the nightgown- isn't terribly flattering on most figures, so i'm not sure i could pull it off.






tinkerbell- fiesty, girly, and spunky, tinkerbell is quite a handful. although she loses her way for a but, ultimately her love for peter pan shines through. and, who doesn't love wings and a wand? (a plus for me is that she has blond hair...)
















tiger lily- tiger lily is adventurous, stubborn, and a great friend. she also loves to dance. she is loyal to her family and to peter pan. i'm pretty sure peter pan is secretly in love with her. (personally my favorite, but where would i get a costume?)






please take part in the poll on the left soon so that i can get a costume and find my peter pan!

off to neverland!

the fever

yes, i admit it- i have the bieber fever.

who doesn't?

but when i saw this at Wally World, my mind was blown. and I just had to laugh.

apparently j biebs inspires nail polish colors

<3 it

jimmer jammed

i think it's safe to say. . .

that every [normal] girl at BYU is in love with this guy.

and every guy wishes he was him.

yup, we are sure glad to have you jimmer :)

prince philip

do you want to know which disney prince you think you prefer? if you do, please read my friend erin's blog post about it. i always thought i'd go for prince naveen or Aladdin, but after reading this and realizing that the princes are really just dumb boys i've settled for Prince Philip. or Peter Pan.