words of wisdom wednesday

with a lot of things weighing on my mind i have been praying almost constantly. sometimes it gets frustrating waiting for an answer don't you agree? i just want a lightning bolt to come down or some writing to appear on the wall telling me everything i need to know about decisions and my life for the next ten years (at least). but i need to remember that my prayers are not the only one's going up to heaven. other people are looking for answers too. i want to be the person who is an answer to someone else's prayer. i want to be the person who is more worried about helping others than about her own problems. i want to be more Christlike.

hands

"We are surrounded by those in need of our attention, our encouragement, our support, our encouragement, our support, our comfort, our kindness- be they family members, friends, acquaintances, or strangers. We are the Lord's hands here upon the earth, with the mandate to serve and to lift His children. He is dependent upon each of us." President Thomas S. Monson

would you give your kidney to a stranger?

I'm worried. Lately I've been able to have a lot of time to think. Today my mom was reading an e-mail from a family friend about their son who has had health problems since he was a baby. Most recently he has been diagnosed with lymphoma, which is in its advanced stages and has now basically destroyed all of his liver. His body is practically shutting down and soon his kidney (which is a transplant) will fail too. As my mom was reading the e-mail I felt so sad, I wanted to cry. And this is what worries me. I want to be a doctor and basically in that profession you work with people who are dying. But every time I watch a medical show or hear about people with horrible medical problems who are dying, I just get so sad. I am pretty sure my patients are not gonna want me blubbering and crying every time somebody dies in the hospital. But then again, I feel like the medical field is my place to be. Who knows, maybe after I get into the profession, I will be okay and I will be able to at least hold my emotions in pen until I get home or something. Maybe I will be stronger that I am now. I just hope so....

Three Wishes

What would I wish for if a genie appeared out of my water bottle right now and granted me three wishes?
Wish #1: I wish I was an althete. I have always admired athletes. In high school though everyone does some sort of sport though. And the athletes who are put in the spotlight always seems to think that they are God's gift to the school. But here at college it's different. I mean if you are an athlete you are dedicated. You put so much effort and time, sweat and blood into your "game." There is so much I see in athletes that I think is good. Self- discipline. Strength. Endurance. Life lessons. If I could go back and change something, I would find a sport that I love and was willing to work for and really work for it. I did have one chance that I wasn't able to really follow, partly because I didn't have much support from family and partly because I didn't have the means to do so. There is also something about knowing that you have a habit of health that you will probably keep for the rest of your life, while you can also focus on school and a career you love. I wish I was a swimmer.
Wish #2: I wish I could heal the world. Everyone is like "oh I want world peace" and I'm sure most of them really do. But do they want to work for it? Give me the means (knowledge, money, influence) and I will go to Africa, Asia, Central and South America to help those who need the medical knowledge that we have. There are so many sick, hurting people who will never get the chance that they deserve at having a marvelous life! Why would we be so selfish to keep this all to ourselves?
Wish #3: I wish I had a boy. Yeah, yeah, pretty shallow I know. But trust me there are times in your life you just really need someone like that. I love my roommates and I would never undermine how much they help me, but I just need someone right now. I have always had a best guy friend, and right now I feel like I don't. It's hard. I'm not whining. I hate HATE people who complain, but I mean a girl can't hold it in forever. I just want to know if he likes me for more than just a friend! I love being friends with boys, but hey, I think I'm old enough to handle more than that. Ha ha this probably doesn't make much sense. Sorry. It's hard to get my thoughts out into words. Most girls probably know what I mean. Someone who is there all the time. The Best Friend. He makes you laugh. He is so much like you. It seems like he came into your life at the perfect time. Will he see me? Will he see what he means to me? Do I mean the same to him? Guess I'll just have to wait for this wish.
There is no genie. So I guess I'll have to keep pulling wish bones and straw wrappers, wishing on the first star, and wishing at 11:11.