forever eponine?

i cannot. i will not. be eponine- anymore.
waiting for you has taken years. and you still don't see me.
so, no matter how my heart misses you. best friend.
i won't be coming back. at least not for a while.
i'm sorry i'm not that girl who broke your heart.
but i am me.
and i know i am beautiful.
can i please have my heart back?
if you want it again, you are going to have to beg.
let me go away.
and
stop being the forever eponine that i've allowed myself to become.