confusing

sometimes life is confusing. i don't know what i want.

or, i think i know what i want, but getting there i get beaten down.
is is really worth  it?
i know they say we need the hard times in order to grow, but seriously, i think i've done enough growing this year.
every time i've gotten comfortable with where i am, some new obstacle has landed in my way, or on my head.

people keep asking, asking me questions that apparently i am supposed to correctly answer.

and everything is changing.
marriage. graduation. missions. people coming home from missions.
i know change is good. but i sure hate uncertainty.

phoo. well, i'm off to school for the day. wish me luck.
i'll probably be checking in later tonight with some monday musings.