i hate money. and being worried about it (or the lack thereof). as you may know, i work at the malt shoppe. last semester i had the best job. i worked at the Bean Life Science Museum gift shop. i worked 19 hours a week and i loved it! sadly, i went to Africa and had to sacrifice this job. i was also hoping to get grant money again, but obama hates me (ok i know he doesn't but whatever) and i didn't get any grant money. so, with about $900 to my name i came to school. yes, i have a job, for which i am grateful. but i work at most two days a week. every time i work i come away either about to cry, or wanting to kill someone, or both. therefore, i need a new job. for my own sanity. i am tired of hating my job. and i am tired of having absolutely no money. i'm tired of worrying about every time i buy something. i'm tired of all my friends being able to do all these fun things, and i can't even afford to buy new clothes. i try not to be jealous of these people, but it's really hard. my mom gets mad at me saying that beauty doesn't come from new clothes, and happiness doesn't come from new things. i know it doesn't.
i also hate money for the reason that i hate worrying about my parents. they are in such a bad financial situation right now that they can't even come out to provo to pick me up for family functions. they have always been able to do that. so now i either have to find a ride with someone, or not go. its horrible. i'm sick of college students saying how independent and frugal they are when they really aren't. its so dumb how people think they are living the "poor college life" when they are doing just fine (or better than fine) because of parent's money or pell grants. GAH it is so dumb. i know though, if i was in a better financial situation or if my parents could help me, then i wouldn't be so upset about it. so please excuse my rant. k thanks.