i'm not perfect. i never will be (until i die).
but there was a time when i felt like i needed to be perfect.
i felt like i was fat and unattractive.
i ate because i hated my body. and then i hated my body more because i was not eating healthy.
i didn't want to socialize with people, much less date, because i didn't feel comfortable in my own skin.
i was desperate for a change. i needed to do something to control the dislike i had towards myself.
i started running. and the year after that i ran in three half marathons.
i started lifting weights and working out more.
but getting more in shape was not what changed me.
and there was not one pivotal event that changed me into a lover of self.
it was and is a process. every day decisions. positive self talk. and loving myself the way i am.
but this isn't a post about how you can love yourself more. because that is something you have to figure out on your own. and i'm no professional.
and this isn't a post about how strong and amazing i am. because that's just awkward.
i believe that whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. i believe that what was a weakness can become a strength. you can help others better when you face your struggles head on.
i'm not perfect. but no one is. i know that the reason i got this job at this time in my life is because i am ready to help those who are at the Center. a year ago i would not have been ready. i know that because i struggled with body image and my relationship with food, i can better understand what these girls are feeling and thinking.
i know that we can't just run around telling every girl that she is beautiful and hope that she believes it. that doesn't work. loving yourself isn't about what others tell you. it's about what you tell yourself. it's about accepting every part of you- the strengths and weaknesses. the beauties and the "flaws." it is about seeing the beauty in yourself and in the world around you.
sometimes you just need a little treat. and so i may or may not do this. it's totally cool.
embrace yourself. love life. do things that bring you true happiness. go out and serve someone. laugh as much as possible. life is great! you are beautiful!
For attractive lips,
Speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes,
Seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure,
Share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair,
Let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day.
Walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
People, even more than things,
Have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed,
And redeemed; never throw out anyone.
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand,
You will find one at the end of each of your arms.
As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands;
One for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.