27 September 2012

reality check

a few months ago i wrote a post in which i mentioned something about people writing overly optimistic posts all the time. and how that was a little hard for me to read because i try to be real on my blog. let me clarify. it's not that i think people who write up-beat, gushy, optimistic posts are fake or are lying about their lives. i just want to see more than that side of their life. nor does my comment imply that my life is way serious and that i am not happy- ever.
the other day someone questioned my happiness. asking for the "behind the scenes of just american honey." simply because my recent posts have been more happy. i was. . . angry. and this isn't the first time this has happened. 
so, please, allow me to give you a quick reality check. i strive to be 100% real on my blog. this is a lifestyle blog and as such i write about a plethora of things. the bad and the good. i want people to realize that life isn't all rainbows and butterflies and unicorns. but, i hope that from my blog, you also see that life isn't just thunderclouds and flat tires and failing tests. if from reading my blog you get the idea that i am a chronically disheartened and depressed person, then i am sorry. i hope you will take the time to read the happy, fun posts that prove otherwise. 
i am a happy person. i have been greatly blessed in the last month and i feel like i have grown a lot closer to my Heavenly Father. i have struggled with things this last month too. i have made hard decisions, lost a dear friend, reevaluated my career plans, and begun to face some inner demons. granted my life isn't perfect. but at the same time, i really cannot complain. i  know that everything- the good and the bad- in my life right now is happening for a reason. God has a plan for me. i don't know what it is, but i am taking life one step at a time.
so please, if you can't handle hearing the good and the bad, then stop reading my blog. don't question my happiness (especially when sometimes i do just want to crawl back into bed and eat ice cream all day) because i usually am a happy, upbeat person. and if you think that my smiley face is just a facade then you obviously don't know me that well.
yes, this is true: 
but it's also true that life is great! i feel like there are exciting days ahead. and i know that each day is a blessing, not to be taken for granted. 

ps. look for an exciting announcement in the next few weeks!!


  1. You can feel however you want!! p.s. exciting announcement! Can't wait!

  2. Oh my goodness! I totally get what you mean! I feel the same way, I always have to remind myself that maybe those overly optimistic, annoyingly positive, everything-is-good-all-the-time people are being sincere in their own way, but I'd much rather read balanced stuff! Life is rough and designed to be so, let's be real about that. Denying the hard stuff is there just seems exhausting.

  3. From what I've read, and since I only just stumbled onto your blog tonight it hasn't been the years worth of posts you've written, you do seem very genuine. Haters gonna hate. Just be as authentic as you are and then you don't have to worry if you're acting too happy or sad. People will take away what they want. You seem to have a solid perspective.